The Heart of a Woman---The Wife's Heart

Her heart is filled with love and honor. She makes things look right and no matter how tired and overwork she is, she still has life to be the wife that she is called to be. Her hands work to make sure that when she touch it grows spiritually. She thinks ahead of what he thinks because she wants to make sure that everything in the home is up to date and right on track. She thinks about what is coming up so he never has to worry and think what if it doesn't work. She holds the house to her heart because that is where her heart lays....the house of love and where it suppose to be cherish. The heart of the wife doesn't seek much. Overwork and the payment we are seeking is priceless. The hugs, love, and just the plain thank you! A wife's heart is tender at the touch. Be careful how you touch it because it can easily be torn. I would tell all to cherish your wife heart, because just because she is the wife, she has a heart that hurts and even behind the humbleness she has the unspoken words that are in the heart. A wife's heart is to be cherish and love with simple things in life. She doesn't ask for much, just time and a little attention. Her heart is a diamond that has to be cherish and clean. It can harden and it will cry out. Many hearts have and still is. Cherish's the heart of the woman....cherish it because if you don't someone will take her heart and love it, say thank, you and she won't have to fight for what her heart desires.

The Encounter with Christ

What a bless weekend I had. To have an one on one with God. What a time! It was a time to learn who I was in Christ. I learned so much about myself and my thoughts. It was crazy. I learned that I was hurting and angry with God for things that I desire so much of. I felt like I was being punish for things and I was so hurt. It was a time learning and giving up all my heart. They had a moment where we were allowed to nail things to the cross. I cried and wouldn't go. That was the hardest thing for me was nailing it all to the cross. I was hurting and I felt if I let it go then I won't get it. It is a working progress. I nailed it and I felt like the biggest weight was lifted off me. God was hurting because I was angry. It was not the best feeling because He died for me. Now I stand stronger. Stronger then every! Now my marriage is better because I have on another type of mind set. To renew my mind! I have a new mind and new heart! My heart if faithful and it will stay that way. I'm an overcome!!!!

When the wind blows

The gift is a blessing and many take it for granted. I never thought I would be in a place of not knowing or not understanding. I ask God why. I know we shouldn't ask but I am trying to figure out am I being punish. I am a woman of faith and have been for a long time. That is how I stood for my husband. 5 years for him. I never thought the one gift I desire so heavily, has been the challenge of my life. The faith of a wife is not an easy gift, but I'm holding on to it as much as I can. Faith is not as we think it. It is where we really have to know what we want and what we desire. The bible states that when we take delight in the Lord He will give us the desire of our hearts. So I'm standing on my faithful heart. The heart that stands and my heart that hurts. It is my heart that feel like it has been hit in the chest with thousands of bolts of lighten, but I can't afford to move with the wind. The wind is blowing extra hard right now and even though I'm a hard tree rooted in the ground of the Lord, I'm still trying not to move. Not easy, but I'm trying. I smile because God is good and yes deep down my deepness is hurting, but I keep pressing. I press and push. I am in that season. Season of conception! Praise God because His word will come to pass. The blessing is on its way. Thank you God.

The Balance

After a battle of the mind yesterday, I went home still with a heavy heart. As a woman, we are too emotional and as a wife we suppose to be humble. How do we balance of not losing our mind. A woman's heart is full of love and care, but there are times when we just really want to say what we need to say without being told that something is wrong with our thought process. Men and women are different and that will never change, but we are the same in Christ. I am working on a lesson God has me speaking on next month and it is funny when you are working on something you are going through it. WOOOOOOOO It feels like this heavy weight, but I know it is for the best because of the word that is in me to say next month. God knows my heart and knows that I want to be a good wife and child of God and it is not easy. We have to do things out of love and in peace, but again where is the balance when you feel out of place and left out? Or as my mommy use to say "that 3rd wheel!" Having a title of wife and child of God is not easy because it comes with work and time, but it comes with everyone wanting something from you and needing something out of you. Sometimes you just don't have it in you to give and you are not even filled yet. As a woman I always want a man to feel what we feel and to understand that the love God has place in us is for us to share and to show the world that we have, but it is far from understood.

What do you desire from God? We are missing something from somewhere and we go looking for it in the wrong place and even at the wrong time. It comes a point where we have to say this is what I want and this is how I need to get it!!!! THROUGH GOD! You won't find it in your mate, friend, and etc. Yes God has place people in our life that are there to love on us and share the world with us but we have to becareful of those that are not for us. We are a working process and the balancing game is not fun. Mommy, work, school, church, friends, wife, and then God. You notice I put Him last on the list, because that is what we do. God is last to get our attention and the last to hear I love you. We search for Him but in our own time and way. We lose site of what is important because we want our relationships to work....husband, kids, friends, co worker, etc. But how can  you have a true love when you really don't love God? We have to learn how to be a wife, mother, friend, and all those things that we have been called to do, but being a child of God is first and formost. There are days I feel my love doesn't get the attention it is needed. I don't hear I love you as much or even that hug that I so long for, but I cannot keep depending on my husband to do it. I have to go back to my first husband.....The Lord! I forgot about him somewhere between will you marry me and OMG I am rethinking this marriage thing and God where were you and if this is right!! LOL. This is real and to the point. I had to be honest with myself. I lost my balance when I got married, because everything else became important, but at the same time I felt like I did not. So I had to look at the scale and start over and make my first husband happy by balancing Him first. We do learn the hard way and Lord knows I am still learning how to balance. How about you!!!!

The Begining

This is a new start to what I want to be a journey of details about who I am and what I desire so much in my life. Her Faithful Heart is who I am. The faith that lies within my heart and the journey to gain things that I so desire from God. What a journey I have had and a journey ahead of me. Faith is something I hold dear near to me and I love the walk that it has led me to thus far. I am looking forward to the words that God has place in me and for me to speak. I pray that this blog is to help someone walk and stand in faith. Not easy, but worth it all at the end. Praying for better days in this faith walk. I know it will come to pass. Faith without works is dead! Praise Thee!